Wow, I can’t believe it’s been almost a month since I’ve posted. I have really no excuse other than I’ve just been really busy trying to balance work, school, business, and family responsibilities, and if I am to be honest, I have been falling short on every front.
A week before Thanksgiving I had hernia surgery. In my mind, I was only going to be out of commission for a few weeks and then I’d be right back at it. I had already lost 25 pounds and I knew that a small set back wasn’t going to derail my success! Boy was I wrong! I was unable to work out until after Christmas! Almost 6 weeks of not working out really put me in a funk and I found myself slipping back in to old bad habits of eating due to boredom and stress. Had it not been for Shakeology, I would have gained a ton of weight, but I managed to get through the holidays having only gained 8 pounds.
My oldest daughter moved back in with us for a few weeks during Christmas and New Year’s and of course her stuff was stacked up in the garage where our exercise space is. I totally took advantage of this excuse to continue my bad choices. After all was said and done, I gained about 12 pounds back of the 25 I had lost. I was really depressed about it and felt like a big phony. I’m sure that feeling came through in my personality because that was also about the time my business started to take a dive. I became so focused on building the business back up that I lost focus on what it really is all about.
I got in to the fitness coaching business to help people just as I had been helped. It feels so good to know that I’ve greatly impacted the health of another person and helping someone else achieve their goals is what I believe my calling is. For whatever reason, I lost sight of that and it became about the money.
I haven’t really been one to look up to for motivation as of late and for that I must apologize. I am supposed to be coaching and inspiring others, but I really got in a dark place these last several weeks with all of the pressure that has been put on me. A good friend who is familiar with my business had to dish out some tough love. You see, if I am not walking the talk, then how am I supposed to be successful as a fitness coach? She totally called me out! She knew I hadn’t been doing my daily workouts and it showed in my mood. My Facebook posts had turned in to nothing more than shameless product barking and I am really not proud of that. The one thing that I had going for me was that my Facebook page was all about inspiring others to take a chance on themselves and become healthier and I screwed it up. She told me to take a break from my business for a few weeks and focus on myself because if I’m not happy with me then I can’t effectively help others. Makes sense.
So here I am, starting over (somewhat). I am part of an accountability group just like the ones I place my clients in to. At first I didn’t like the idea of taking what seems like a step backward, but after thinking about it I realize that she was right. I need to work on me for a bit so that I can be the husband, father, and coach that my wife, children, and clients deserve.